a thing i regret the most is how shy i was all my childhood and aware of other people. How scared i was to be laughed at and be funny. Scared to be wrong and stupid. Scared to open myself. Scared to dance or sing or make love. Even undress on a beach was a stress for me. Stubborn and straightforward, blunt and deff to opinions of others. Self digging and destructive. Scared to have wrong taste and likes, or wrong opinion. I wanted to be loved by everyone all the time. There is never nothing wrong with me. How terribly wrong i was.